Pain. I feel it every single day. It is relentless. Never ending. I pray for a break but of course the break never comes. Chronic. Thats the word. The dictionary defines 'chronic' as 'lasting for a long time or happening over and over again.' Over and over again. Never ending. No break, no refuge. It's like a terrifying ride that I can't get off. If I jump I fall, but if I stay I plummet down the drop. The only difference is the track. It comes from the greek word 'khronos'

A made system that was never made for me POTs Endometriosis Complex PTSD ADHD Dyslexia Dyspraxia All of the above Are my existing disabilities Existing in a mind and body that the world does not understand Mental health Period disorders Nervous system diagnosis Neurodivergents Seen as hidden disabilities But not hidden from me Existing in a body of pain A vessel that is tired Exhausted and worn down Living in a world that isn’t accessible For both body and mind

It’s just a bad period, I hear. My friends say cramps are normal. We eat chocolate, fill hot water bottles, and marvel at womanhood. The boys in our class never miss a day of PE because they're scared to leak. It hurts bad, I can't focus at all. A doctor tells me it's normal, and i get put on the pill. It doesn't help; but it's normal. My body needs to get used to my menstrual cycle, it's normal. I miss school, I bleed through my clothes, it hurts. It's normal. I try othe